Because of the Word of God being sown in my heart I have been delivered from my past (abuse, hurts, lost, unanswered questions, insecurities, fears, feeling unloved). Before Jesus, the Word being sown in my heart, I would stuff all my pain deep down inside to the point I would almost forget they were there; almost becoming numb to them. Once I opened my heart to the Lord and said the prayer of consecration there was no more hiding and tucking away my past. As I opened my heart to him I wanted to be more in his presence which meant being in the fire and all the un-pure garbage inside being drawn to the surface as he refined me and I wanted to be more in his Word which meant conviction to all the things that are unseen and hidden away in my heart. Having all these things revealed to me hurt badly but it had to be done and I’m glad it was. All the things I thought I let go and had no feelings towards came to the forefront and I was forced to deal with them. The way I dealt with them was only through the Word of God. As I meditated on his Word I could feel the chains of bondage falling off (Romans 6:18) my insecurities began to diminish (Psalm 139:13-14 ) and I finally begun to realize someone does love me and that I am not worthless but have a purpose in life (Jeremiah 29:11). Without the Word of God in my life I can tell you that I would be unable to stand.
When people hear the word of God and do not understand it, the devil comes and snatches the word and takes it away from their hearts. This is the seed that was sown along the path.
The seed that fell on rocky ground refers to people who hears the word God and immediately receives it with joy. But since they no root in themselves, they endures only for a while. For when tribulation or persecution arises because of the word of God, immediately he stumbles and quickly falls away from God. The seed that fall among the thorns refers to people who hear the word of God, but and the cares of this world and the deceitfulness of riches choke the word of God out, and they become unfruitful. But the seed that fall on good soul refers to people who hear the word of God and understand it and they indeed bears fruit.
I have the opportunity to be a part of so many amazing things here at the ministry: leading worship, winning hundreds to the Lord on local high school campuses, youth events, and tent revival meetings (just to name a few). I wouldn’t trade the experience here for anything! As I’ve already stated, third year really has been a time of stretching, shaping, molding, walking in love, and learning how to totally rely on the Lord, but what’s even greater is the impression that’s been placed in my heart for this generation – applying everything I learned in first and second year to reach a lost and dying world. I can’t shake it!
I am so thankful for this school, and for what the Lord has done in my heart. The Lord is so good!